My personal blog on my life as a married mum of 2 girls, battling Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes it will make you laugh, sometimes it will make you cry, but I will always be honest try to share information learning
These days I seem to have regressed a little back to ruminating and those around me I think find that hard to acknowledge. I worked so hard at finding coping strategies to stop myself and distract myself and at the moment those things are just not possible and it feels as those some of those… Continue reading Ruminating again… and again… and ….. again!
Why is it that above all the things we force ourselves to cram into life as a mum, we insist on adding mum guilt to the top of this list... Have you ever tried to be the mum who’s up at 5am? The mum who “Started the day with a little 10k”? Well good on… Continue reading Mum Guilt…
It’s been a while, but having been in bed pretty much solidly for 10 days today, I was feeling low. I’ve written blogs before on how when I’m physically unwell, here. It impacts my head and mental wellness and I’m definitely finding that right now. So here’s my blog... and I’m changing it! There’s lots… Continue reading Improving me… I’m not going backwards
(Written December 2018) I woke up to an average day, not feeling my best, but ok. I looked around my bedroom and could see yesterday had not been great either. A Clear room might not equal clear mind but it helps. As one daughter headed out of the door, and the other was in bed… Continue reading Today the rain hurt my head. Can you imagine?
This is me 🌈 You may have noticed I’ve taken a break from blogging, it hasn’t been intentional. I love to blog and I know how much it helps me and others when I share how I’ve been feeling. However, the main purpose of my blogging has always been for therapy, for my own escapism… Continue reading Mental health Awareness Week
Written 11th April 2020 ... Published 31st March 2021 Where do I start... right now... I’m exhausted, I’m drained and I’m tired of showing I’m ok when I’m not. Having just had a couple of hours crying to myself, I’ve realised the difference between the old me and now. The old me would have allowed… Continue reading Lockdown with BPD
Recently a friend of mine asked if I was ok. They meant it to. It came with the question that my life had been full of work recently and was I doing ok with that. My answer... yes I completely agree that work can take over, whether it's a passion or hobby, your own business,… Continue reading My work is my new distraction
(Written in March) Anxiety is often irrational, uncomfortable and difficult to manage and explain. With the current corona virus situation I can see life becoming more challenging and I’m more anxious than normal. When the news first broke on the corona virus, my flutterings of anxiety began. I could feel my stomach flip and my… Continue reading Anxiety & corona virus
I've fought so hard to not write this blog. I feel like I'm failing by thinking it, let alone reading it, but hopefully someone out there will take comfort in this and knowing we all still struggle. I finished my therapy back in November and my main medications in December. And I've been doing ok,… Continue reading Struggling to move on…
I've been thinking about whether or not I share this, but like everything I share it's always s list of pros and cons. I'm working with the pro's that Writing it down might help others understand my why I find it therapeutic to journal my thoughts I hope it may resonate with others It might… Continue reading Not going out… safe staying in
