My personal blog on my life as a married mum of 2 girls, battling Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes it will make you laugh, sometimes it will make you cry, but I will always be honest try to share information learning
Tomorrow I start a year long journey which I have already waited a year to begin and however well I'm handling my anxiety at the moment, I cant help it, I'm scared. Scared for so many reasons, I can hardly count them. WHY DBT?So what is DBT & why is it so important for those… Continue reading It’s D day tomorrow, D for DBT!
I sat gently tapping my foot on the floor as I tried to keep my eyes open after a disturbed night, the door knocked and I skipped a heart beat My night had been disturbed, not just through worry or a snoring husband, but the fact my HRT is still not quite working and the… Continue reading And breathe… my new nurse was lovely
Tomorrow I meet my new CPN and I have to admit I'm quite nervous. I've been stable and reasonably well for some time now. Of course I've had the odd off day, but overall I've been coping well. I'm so worried that if it's not as I expect, it will throw me off. I shouldn't… Continue reading My new CPN starts tomorrow
So it's official, last week I qualified for an all expenses 5* star holiday to Barbados... just for doing my job. Less than 4 months ago I had become pretty much house ridden, refusing to leave the safety of my 4 walls unless critical. There was no real need to venture out into the scary… Continue reading Barbados… I’m coming 🇧🇧
I'm fortunate that my low days are fewer at the moment, but that doesn't mean I don't have them. When I do I really go low. How low can you go? Low. So low. When my husband went back to work yesterday, reality hit. You see I love being at home when he's here. I… Continue reading Low days… how low can you go?
Hey everyone! It feels so long since I wrote everything down and opened up my head. The truth is, I've been doing ok. Sometimes I feel like a fake when I'm handling life, I feel like I need to be struggling to be valid. But I'm not. It may be short-lived, but I certainly feel… Continue reading I took a break from blogging
In my support group last week, we talked about the attachment issues. As someone with borderline personality disorder I would acknowledge this has always been an issue, but it's only when you focus on it you can see the pattern. I do however have a massive issue with rejection, an irrational fear of losing people,… Continue reading I can’t believe I’m losing someone else
