My personal blog on my life as a married mum of 2 girls, battling Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes it will make you laugh, sometimes it will make you cry, but I will always be honest try to share information learning
And it begins... the end is in sight... It was a couple of weeks who when my medication was put on general decrease. I wanted to share my withdrawal experience during the process. I remember for so long waiting to find the right medication, years infact. And then to find the right dose seemed to… Continue reading Withdrawing from seroquel (quetiapine)
Saturday I had my hair cut and was feeling pretty much OK. I was so looking forward to my therapy today and coming out feeling revitalised and focussed. Well I'm not feeling as I had hoped! Over the last 6 weeks I've longed for the moment that I headed back into that room to start… Continue reading Back in therapy… and it’s self care tonight. I’m feeling delicate… I can admit when I’m struggling
As I consider another aspect of my DBT, Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, the light bulbs are pinging everywhere. For a long time now, I've walked around with a bit of a chip on my shoulder. I've felt hard-done by and that the kids are hard done by due to not having as many people close to… Continue reading Radical acceptance in DBT
What can I say... I've been back almost a month and it truly was a once in a life time experience. For nothing else than I travelled alone, well without my husband to the most incredible place. And it was all for FREE! From arriving at the hotel the night before I flew I knew… Continue reading Barbados was beautiful
So it's Friday and I made it. Yey! My usual anxiety before Mother's Day didn't hit but I've struggled this week. We also have a weekend of family celebrations and this month is the anniversary of her passing, so it's all feeling a little raw. It's FRIYAY!I'd been doing so well and especially with a… Continue reading Bad week but I’m still here
I can't say that the last few years have been fun on this particular day. One way or another I've managed to spoil what should be a lovely family day. It's often been my own ridiculously high expectations, of a day that will somehow not be filled with me thinking of my mum, which is… Continue reading And here we are again… Mother’s Day 2019
Last week I had a build up of my EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) symptoms. Nothing I could really put my finger on but I could recognise some of the symptoms Very tired, falling asleep even during the day Headaches not clearing Wanting to stay in my safe place Acting impulsively, making plans and cancelling… Continue reading An “episode”
Tomorrow will be the last of my 7 weeks of group DBT, Dialectal Behavioural Therapy. Unfortunately I've been ill for 3 of them but have managed to catch up with help from my new nurse. During that time I have also been told my psychiatrist has left. So since Christmas I have lost my CPN… Continue reading My final DBT
Arrrrggggghhhh I could scream if it wouldn't involve waking up everyone in the house. It's almost 4am and I'm here, wide awake having not yet been to sleep. It's so frustrating being reliant on medication for everything and then forgetting. So this last two weeks I've been ill with a chest infection again. I've been… Continue reading Cant sleep won’t sleep
I have to remember on nights like today how far I’ve come. It’s hard because today I had a lot of things to do, a lot of places to be and lots of people to meet and I was overwhelmed from the moment I woke up. Instead of clearing my head, prioritising those things that… Continue reading Relapse of worry
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