blogging, Borderline Personality Disorder, mental health, parenting, Uncategorized

Day by day!

Last night I was in torture Wondering when the thoughts would end My mind just wouldn't switch off And was driving me round the bend I felt so tired & frustrated All I could do was cry But then in public smile away I worked hard on that to try Laid in bed I couldn't… Continue reading Day by day!

Borderline Personality Disorder, mental health, parenting, Uncategorized

Don’t stop trying to stop!

This morning I've woken up, feeling fairly low. It's been there for a week or so now, gradually growing, turning from a general lethargy into a downright depressive mood. Who knows what factors & triggers have been involved. I came name two though, guilt & failure. Once again quitting smoking hasn't been as easy as… Continue reading Don’t stop trying to stop!

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Anxiety make up

Now I'm no beauty blogger, there's no video or even photos of me before, after or applying the make-up. That's not my thing, but I have struggled since going into the menopause & with anxiety to find make-up that lasts. Being in the menopause at 35 doesn't help, even with HRT, being overweight is another… Continue reading Anxiety make up

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Who has my back?

I'm laid here now, tossing & turning, unable to sleep, worrying about a million & one decisions. The problem with the disorder Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder or Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is, you don't have a strong sense of who you are & what the "right" thing to do is. I relied so much on… Continue reading Who has my back?

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A text I once sent… which meant I was too anxious for CBT

I was laid awake, wide awake, a couple of years ago & when I headed to my CBT assessment which I had self referred, I showed the lady this text I had sent to my family & friends. She was quite alarmed & said that CBT wasn't going to help. Since then I've just been… Continue reading A text I once sent… which meant I was too anxious for CBT

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My 100th Blog! How did that happen?!

On 28th June I asked my fab twitter followers for topics for my 100th blog & I had some lovely suggestions, but in the end I wanted to just look back at home far I'd come this year since my diagnosis in January this year. When I was diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, even… Continue reading My 100th Blog! How did that happen?!

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Looking back 25 years & the signs were always there – EUPD, BPD & Anxiety

On Thursday I completed my 3rd week in a row of work (my new part-time hours). I hadn't managed this since my diagnosis of Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder in January of this year. As a celebration this lovely lady, my bestie, Alex, invited me up for a spontaneous weekend in Peebles. I was anxious so… Continue reading Looking back 25 years & the signs were always there – EUPD, BPD & Anxiety