I'm laid here now, tossing & turning, unable to sleep, worrying about a million & one decisions. The problem with the disorder Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder or Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is, you don't have a strong sense of who you are & what the "right" thing to do is. I relied so much on… Continue reading Who has my back?
On 28th June I asked my fab twitter followers for topics for my 100th blog & I had some lovely suggestions, but in the end I wanted to just look back at home far I'd come this year since my diagnosis in January this year. When I was diagnosed with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder, even… Continue reading My 100th Blog! How did that happen?!
So today the shortlisted nominees were announced for the National Diversity Awards & I wasn't shortlisted. Firstly I'd like to say I huge thank you to every single 366 one of you, who took time out to vote. I printed them off for my self care box when I'm feeling down. I'd prepared myself for… Continue reading Celebrating diversity in everyone rather than focusing on me
Two nights ago I was actually in pain in my stomach through what I can only describe as anxiety. I genuinely was feeling tired & drained, understanding why in my previous blog here, but still couldn't get it to leave. My thoughts were also and my head pounding with a headache. I was still in… Continue reading When you turn anxiety on its head
This morning I woke up feeling a little anxious. I couldn’t work out why & once I’d told my manager & she had agreed to me starting late, I was actually ok & headed into work on time. As the day went on the anxiety didn’t seem to lessen & on my journey home I… Continue reading Missing my time at home for recovery
When we suffer from all kinds of mental health problems, it can change us, often into people we don't want to be. What I also need to say at this point is that right now I'm in a great place, so if you're reading it, please don't think I'm wandering down the dark staircase, it's… Continue reading I don’t always know how to behave – that’s what a personality disorder is, but I promise I’m trying!
What a beautiful day we had for a beautiful bride. From the moment she woke up, she came into the room where I was sleeping in our suite & made me a cup of tea. Cool as a cucumber! It was just before 7am & she was as excited as could be. We chatted over… Continue reading My little sisters wedding