These days I seem to have regressed a little back to ruminating and those around me I think find that hard to acknowledge. I worked so hard at finding coping strategies to stop myself and distract myself and at the moment those things are just not possible and it feels as those some of those… Continue reading Ruminating again… and again… and ….. again!
The other day someone asked me what I wanted to be when I was younger. It was a group chat, part of #femalesuccesshub & I just avoided answering, because it seemed silly. I wanted a family before anything. Living in a variety of addresses at 16 had left me with a chip on my shoulder… Continue reading I wanted to be a writer when I grew up & more
On the 15th January this year I began the 7 first steps of DBT group. This was a weekly 3 hour group therapy to start treating my condition of EUPD. Tomorrow I attend my very last session of DBT, having moved to therapy twice weekly since April Where has the year gone. It was only… Continue reading DBT… that’s a wrap … what a year!
I've been thinking about whether or not I share this, but like everything I share it's always s list of pros and cons. I'm working with the pro's that Writing it down might help others understand my why I find it therapeutic to journal my thoughts I hope it may resonate with others It might… Continue reading Not going out… safe staying in
So I haven't done a blog like this for a while, but I want to remain open about my condition and the challenges I face. I also want people to know there's hope and that it's possibly to have a good active life. According to Mind website, "Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a type of personality… Continue reading What is EUPD (Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder)?
Saturday I had my hair cut and was feeling pretty much OK. I was so looking forward to my therapy today and coming out feeling revitalised and focussed. Well I'm not feeling as I had hoped! Over the last 6 weeks I've longed for the moment that I headed back into that room to start… Continue reading Back in therapy… and it’s self care tonight. I’m feeling delicate… I can admit when I’m struggling
As I consider another aspect of my DBT, Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, the light bulbs are pinging everywhere. For a long time now, I've walked around with a bit of a chip on my shoulder. I've felt hard-done by and that the kids are hard done by due to not having as many people close to… Continue reading Radical acceptance in DBT
Wow! After just 1 session I can't believe how much I've took away and started to implement. I feel very positive about this treatment and am thoroughly looking forward to week 3 of group therapy tomorrow. Every other week as part of my DBT, Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, I have a 1 on 1 with my… Continue reading Day one therapy 1 to 1 – Wise Mind & validation
So it's Friday and I made it. Yey! My usual anxiety before Mother's Day didn't hit but I've struggled this week. We also have a weekend of family celebrations and this month is the anniversary of her passing, so it's all feeling a little raw. It's FRIYAY!I'd been doing so well and especially with a… Continue reading Bad week but I’m still here
Last week I had a build up of my EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) symptoms. Nothing I could really put my finger on but I could recognise some of the symptoms Very tired, falling asleep even during the day Headaches not clearing Wanting to stay in my safe place Acting impulsively, making plans and cancelling… Continue reading An “episode”