So I haven't done a blog like this for a while, but I want to remain open about my condition and the challenges I face. I also want people to know there's hope and that it's possibly to have a good active life. According to Mind website, "Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a type of personality… Continue reading What is EUPD (Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder)?
Has it really been over 4 years since I held her hand and said goodnight... it has! I remember for so long feeling like nothing would ever be the same again, nothing would ever feel normal, I'd never think it would be ok to laugh or enjoy myself. But over the years my grief has… Continue reading Mums birthday… 4 years on
So it's Friday and I made it. Yey! My usual anxiety before Mother's Day didn't hit but I've struggled this week. We also have a weekend of family celebrations and this month is the anniversary of her passing, so it's all feeling a little raw. It's FRIYAY!I'd been doing so well and especially with a… Continue reading Bad week but I’m still here
I can't say that the last few years have been fun on this particular day. One way or another I've managed to spoil what should be a lovely family day. It's often been my own ridiculously high expectations, of a day that will somehow not be filled with me thinking of my mum, which is… Continue reading And here we are again… Mother’s Day 2019
Tomorrow will be the last of my 7 weeks of group DBT, Dialectal Behavioural Therapy. Unfortunately I've been ill for 3 of them but have managed to catch up with help from my new nurse. During that time I have also been told my psychiatrist has left. So since Christmas I have lost my CPN… Continue reading My final DBT
When I was a child I remember my first experience of death was a goldfish. I didn't really understand the concept, it didn't seem real, one minute it was there, the next it wasn't. I hadn't grasped that the fish was no longer breathing or living and I think we just got a new one.… Continue reading Grieving children and how to share the truth
This was something I was diagnosed with shortly after my mum had passed away in 2015. I no longer had “depression” but had developed a fear of the unknown & often when people asked “what sets you off?”, my answer was “Everything!” And it really was. I had become accustom during my recovery after my… Continue reading Living with Generalised Anxiety Disorder means everything can be a trigger!
This Saturday I am so looking forward to my sisters wedding. She is amazing & genuinely one of the most selfless people you will ever meet. She will do anything for anyone & helps me & my other sister, Rebecca, continually with whatever is needed. She is so kind hearted which is often at the… Continue reading So proud of my little sister getting married this weekend
Deciding to have surgery is never easy, but I can start this by saying there's a happy ending. It was the best thing I ever did. Having suffered with heavy & painful periods since the age of 13, my mum always suspected I had endometriosis, the same condition as her. It wasn't until I was… Continue reading My choice to have a Hysterectomy at 32 to reduce my risk of Ovarian Cancer
This morning I woke up after a bad nights sleep. I was still awake around 2am & overlaid waking just before 8am. This does not work well with my kids. They need time in a morning, so without even my usual cup of tea, breakfast or medication, I got them ready & dropped them at… Continue reading Bad day gone good… dare I say, amazing!