Arrrrggggghhhh I could scream if it wouldn't involve waking up everyone in the house. It's almost 4am and I'm here, wide awake having not yet been to sleep. It's so frustrating being reliant on medication for everything and then forgetting. So this last two weeks I've been ill with a chest infection again. I've been… Continue reading Cant sleep won’t sleep
I have to remember on nights like today how far I’ve come. It’s hard because today I had a lot of things to do, a lot of places to be and lots of people to meet and I was overwhelmed from the moment I woke up. Instead of clearing my head, prioritising those things that… Continue reading Relapse of worry
I made it, I can't tell you yet that I enjoyed it or that I got anything out of it, but I did it. I came home actually feeling less positive and more helpless. I spent the whole group trying to answer questions in the right way, because it's a group. I don't want to… Continue reading Group therapy: week 1
This piece of paper was what I was given as I left the psychiatrists appointment room that day in January this year, feeling deflated, suicidal, defeated, crushed & unable to pick myself up. I felt my life was over. When I finally went back to my GP 3 years ago I knew my mental health… Continue reading Becoming a chameleon
After 10 weeks my eardrum should have healed, but has it? No! It did seem to be getting better, but somehow over the last couple of weeks it's become infected again & now it feels like the whole process is starting again, and my anxiety just makes that worse. I put off going back to… Continue reading Should my physical or mental health come first?
Deciding to have surgery is never easy, but I can start this by saying there's a happy ending. It was the best thing I ever did. Having suffered with heavy & painful periods since the age of 13, my mum always suspected I had endometriosis, the same condition as her. It wasn't until I was… Continue reading My choice to have a Hysterectomy at 32 to reduce my risk of Ovarian Cancer
So today is day 6 of this dreadful perforated eardrum. I was told it might take 2 days to stop draining & 6-12 weeks to heal & regain hearing. I was fine with that. But I panic & get anxious the longer it goes on. My attractive first attempt at trying to sit up &… Continue reading I’m unwell & being a mardy bum. We all need to vent sometimes!