This piece of paper was what I was given as I left the psychiatrists appointment room that day in January this year, feeling deflated, suicidal, defeated, crushed & unable to pick myself up. I felt my life was over. When I finally went back to my GP 3 years ago I knew my mental health… Continue reading Becoming a chameleon
This is my 6 years ago, fun loving & free. I'm aiming to get back on a swing this year! Having had anxiety for a while, alongside the borderline personality disorder, I had made assumptions as to what my triggers must be. Things I thought were triggers: Large crowds New people New places Social media… Continue reading Learning that my “Triggers” aren’t what I thought they were
Today I count my blessings. I know it's been very negative from me lately, & I apologise for that, I'm still not out the other side but getting there. I'm feeling fortunate for so many things My daughters My husband My sisters These really do hold me together when the glue starts to crack! My… Continue reading Fortunate me!
The scariest thing about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), is how quickly it can change, in days, hours or even minutes. I can and do spot trends. After a build up of extreme highs, comes the lows. Often the higher the high, the lower the low and I'm told regularly that until I receive the tools… Continue reading From my toes to my nose – the highs and lows of BPD
I can't get bereavement counselling because my mental health illness is too severe I can't have CBT because my mental health illness is too severe I can't go on sertraline, my mental health illness is too severe I need to have time off work because my mental health illness is too severe I need to… Continue reading Too severe or not severe enough – my mental health illness
When I was a child I remember my first experience of death was a goldfish. I didn't really understand the concept, it didn't seem real, one minute it was there, the next it wasn't. I hadn't grasped that the fish was no longer breathing or living and I think we just got a new one.… Continue reading Grieving children and how to share the truth
Suicide is not a selfish act. It's an act of desperation, pain & often compulsion, generally believing they are saving those around them from more suffering. The majority of those who have family or friends who have lost someone to suicide would agree. Having been friends with Kirsty since the age of 16 we had… Continue reading Suicide isn’t selfish – the system is biased!