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Bad week but I’m still here

So it's Friday and I made it. Yey! My usual anxiety before Mother's Day didn't hit but I've struggled this week. We also have a weekend of family celebrations and this month is the anniversary of her passing, so it's all feeling a little raw. It's FRIYAY!I'd been doing so well and especially with a… Continue reading Bad week but I’m still here

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And here we are again… Mother’s Day 2019

I can't say that the last few years have been fun on this particular day. One way or another I've managed to spoil what should be a lovely family day. It's often been my own ridiculously high expectations, of a day that will somehow not be filled with me thinking of my mum, which is… Continue reading And here we are again… Mother’s Day 2019

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An “episode”

Last week I had a build up of my EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) symptoms. Nothing I could really put my finger on but I could recognise some of the symptoms Very tired, falling asleep even during the day Headaches not clearing Wanting to stay in my safe place Acting impulsively, making plans and cancelling… Continue reading An “episode”

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My final DBT

Tomorrow will be the last of my 7 weeks of group DBT, Dialectal Behavioural Therapy. Unfortunately I've been ill for 3 of them but have managed to catch up with help from my new nurse. During that time I have also been told my psychiatrist has left. So since Christmas I have lost my CPN… Continue reading My final DBT

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Cant sleep won’t sleep

Arrrrggggghhhh I could scream if it wouldn't involve waking up everyone in the house. It's almost 4am and I'm here, wide awake having not yet been to sleep. It's so frustrating being reliant on medication for everything and then forgetting. So this last two weeks I've been ill with a chest infection again. I've been… Continue reading Cant sleep won’t sleep

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Relapse of worry

I have to remember on nights like today how far I’ve come. It’s hard because today I had a lot of things to do, a lot of places to be and lots of people to meet and I was overwhelmed from the moment I woke up. Instead of clearing my head, prioritising those things that… Continue reading Relapse of worry

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Group therapy: week 1

I made it, I can't tell you yet that I enjoyed it or that I got anything out of it, but I did it. I came home actually feeling less positive and more helpless. I spent the whole group trying to answer questions in the right way, because it's a group. I don't want to… Continue reading Group therapy: week 1

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From my toes to my nose – the highs and lows of BPD

The scariest thing about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), is how quickly it can change, in days, hours or even minutes. I can and do spot trends. After a build up of extreme highs, comes the lows. Often the higher the high, the lower the low and I'm told regularly that until I receive the tools… Continue reading From my toes to my nose – the highs and lows of BPD

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Interview with Eleanor Segall

Eleanor Segall is one of the busiest people I have had the pleasure of knowing. She's an incredible writer, blogger and also amongst other things a mentor. I've found her incredibly passionate, supportive and constructive as I begin the early stages of my career. As someone I admire and look up to who had battled… Continue reading Interview with Eleanor Segall

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Should my physical or mental health come first?

After 10 weeks my eardrum should have healed, but has it? No! It did seem to be getting better, but somehow over the last couple of weeks it's become infected again & now it feels like the whole process is starting again, and my anxiety just makes that worse. I put off going back to… Continue reading Should my physical or mental health come first?