(Written December 2018) I woke up to an average day, not feeling my best, but ok. I looked around my bedroom and could see yesterday had not been great either. A Clear room might not equal clear mind but it helps. As one daughter headed out of the door, and the other was in bed… Continue reading Today the rain hurt my head. Can you imagine?
This is me 🌈 You may have noticed I’ve taken a break from blogging, it hasn’t been intentional. I love to blog and I know how much it helps me and others when I share how I’ve been feeling. However, the main purpose of my blogging has always been for therapy, for my own escapism… Continue reading Mental health Awareness Week
Written 11th April 2020 ... Published 31st March 2021 Where do I start... right now... I’m exhausted, I’m drained and I’m tired of showing I’m ok when I’m not. Having just had a couple of hours crying to myself, I’ve realised the difference between the old me and now. The old me would have allowed… Continue reading Lockdown with BPD
(Written in March) Anxiety is often irrational, uncomfortable and difficult to manage and explain. With the current corona virus situation I can see life becoming more challenging and I’m more anxious than normal. When the news first broke on the corona virus, my flutterings of anxiety began. I could feel my stomach flip and my… Continue reading Anxiety & corona virus
I've fought so hard to not write this blog. I feel like I'm failing by thinking it, let alone reading it, but hopefully someone out there will take comfort in this and knowing we all still struggle. I finished my therapy back in November and my main medications in December. And I've been doing ok,… Continue reading Struggling to move on…
On the 15th January this year I began the 7 first steps of DBT group. This was a weekly 3 hour group therapy to start treating my condition of EUPD. Tomorrow I attend my very last session of DBT, having moved to therapy twice weekly since April Where has the year gone. It was only… Continue reading DBT… that’s a wrap … what a year!
I've been thinking about whether or not I share this, but like everything I share it's always s list of pros and cons. I'm working with the pro's that Writing it down might help others understand my why I find it therapeutic to journal my thoughts I hope it may resonate with others It might… Continue reading Not going out… safe staying in
So I haven't done a blog like this for a while, but I want to remain open about my condition and the challenges I face. I also want people to know there's hope and that it's possibly to have a good active life. According to Mind website, "Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a type of personality… Continue reading What is EUPD (Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder)?
Has it really been over 4 years since I held her hand and said goodnight... it has! I remember for so long feeling like nothing would ever be the same again, nothing would ever feel normal, I'd never think it would be ok to laugh or enjoy myself. But over the years my grief has… Continue reading Mums birthday… 4 years on
As I consider another aspect of my DBT, Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, the light bulbs are pinging everywhere. For a long time now, I've walked around with a bit of a chip on my shoulder. I've felt hard-done by and that the kids are hard done by due to not having as many people close to… Continue reading Radical acceptance in DBT