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Cant sleep won’t sleep

Arrrrggggghhhh I could scream if it wouldn't involve waking up everyone in the house. It's almost 4am and I'm here, wide awake having not yet been to sleep. It's so frustrating being reliant on medication for everything and then forgetting. So this last two weeks I've been ill with a chest infection again. I've been… Continue reading Cant sleep won’t sleep

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Just thinking

Thinking thoughts of terror Usually underlying insecurities Constantly changing choices Harmful hasty hazards Watching, waiting, worrying Feeling forever judged Fearing, forgetting frequently Lost, lonely, laid awake She slips silently away, straining Eternal exhaustion eats away Broken bluntly at the bottom Potentially poisonous plans Recurring reactions & responses Daunting dangers of the day ahead Impressions of… Continue reading Just thinking

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Day by day!

Last night I was in torture Wondering when the thoughts would end My mind just wouldn't switch off And was driving me round the bend I felt so tired & frustrated All I could do was cry But then in public smile away I worked hard on that to try Laid in bed I couldn't… Continue reading Day by day!