Last night I began to feel tired. I could feel the anxiety building and switched my phone off for a few hours. I went to bed with my cloudy head wondering how I could clear it. I woke up this morning feeling like I hadn't slept at all. I had. I'd slept all night but… Continue reading Cloudy head syndrome
A bad day used to turn my week into a wreck, like a train spiralling off track. I hated the feeling of letting someone down, especially those I cared about and respected and would push and push until eventually I crashed. I'd agree to more and more things, believing I could do everything and always… Continue reading The thing with a bad day… it can get better too!
This week I had my quarterly session with my psychiatrist & together we made some big decisions. I can't say it's been an easy few weeks, accepting the condition & realising at this moment I can't just be "normal". People have gone out of their way to help & support me, but when I fail,… Continue reading A hard pill to swallow!
This is my 6 years ago, fun loving & free. I'm aiming to get back on a swing this year! Having had anxiety for a while, alongside the borderline personality disorder, I had made assumptions as to what my triggers must be. Things I thought were triggers: Large crowds New people New places Social media… Continue reading Learning that my “Triggers” aren’t what I thought they were
Today I count my blessings. I know it's been very negative from me lately, & I apologise for that, I'm still not out the other side but getting there. I'm feeling fortunate for so many things My daughters My husband My sisters These really do hold me together when the glue starts to crack! My… Continue reading Fortunate me!
The scariest thing about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), is how quickly it can change, in days, hours or even minutes. I can and do spot trends. After a build up of extreme highs, comes the lows. Often the higher the high, the lower the low and I'm told regularly that until I receive the tools… Continue reading From my toes to my nose – the highs and lows of BPD
I can't get bereavement counselling because my mental health illness is too severe I can't have CBT because my mental health illness is too severe I can't go on sertraline, my mental health illness is too severe I need to have time off work because my mental health illness is too severe I need to… Continue reading Too severe or not severe enough – my mental health illness