Borderline Personality Disorder, mental health, parenting, Uncategorized

Don’t stop trying to stop!

This morning I've woken up, feeling fairly low. It's been there for a week or so now, gradually growing, turning from a general lethargy into a downright depressive mood. Who knows what factors & triggers have been involved. I came name two though, guilt & failure. Once again quitting smoking hasn't been as easy as… Continue reading Don’t stop trying to stop!

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Dear Daughters,

I want to start by saying how much I love you & always will. You are the most important priority in my life & will never put anything before your health & care. You are the most special thing I have ever been given. I love being your friend, when you confide in me, but… Continue reading Dear Daughters,

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Day 15 of being smokefree!

Today is day 15. I happened accidentally, but I'm so glad it happened for me. I couldn't have smoked for the last 2 weeks due to illness, but it turned into the perfect opportunity. Having stopped smoking before, several times, I'm aware that even after this key time frame, it's easy to slip back into… Continue reading Day 15 of being smokefree!

Borderline Personality Disorder

My choice to have a Hysterectomy at 32 to reduce my risk of Ovarian Cancer

Deciding to have surgery is never easy, but I can start this by saying there's a happy ending. It was the best thing I ever did. Having suffered with heavy & painful periods since the age of 13, my mum always suspected I had endometriosis, the same condition as her. It wasn't until I was… Continue reading My choice to have a Hysterectomy at 32 to reduce my risk of Ovarian Cancer

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Still ill but please support us tomorrow if I’m there or not! Wellbeing & mental health are so important to me!

Starting the week with a cold, turning into a perforated ear drum, and 3 days laid flat unable to do much except the occasional tweet or email has drained me & I've become so anxious. Not only this, but tomorrow is the day I've put my heart & soul into, our #EckingtonWellbeingEvent & here on… Continue reading Still ill but please support us tomorrow if I’m there or not! Wellbeing & mental health are so important to me!

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There doesn’t have to be a down if you can control the up – Stability

I won't lie to you, Florida was amazing. Both Orlando & Sarasota were incredible for different reasons & as a family we know we'd all love to go back. The anxiety & build up before I went was like nothing I've ever experienced. I suffer with anxiety a lot, but I was convinced I was… Continue reading There doesn’t have to be a down if you can control the up – Stability

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Stability

For someone who is "unstable" Stability can often scare Its feel like something might creep up And I won't have time to prepare So even when I'm feeling good I'm worried about falling down So this time I'm doing things differently Without the forward thinking frown I'm enjoying each day for what it is Counting… Continue reading Stability