My personal blog on my life as a married mum of 2 girls, battling Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes it will make you laugh, sometimes it will make you cry, but I will always be honest try to share information learning
These days I seem to have regressed a little back to ruminating and those around me I think find that hard to acknowledge. I worked so hard at finding coping strategies to stop myself and distract myself and at the moment those things are just not possible and it feels as those some of those… Continue reading Ruminating again… and again… and ….. again!
Why is it that above all the things we force ourselves to cram into life as a mum, we insist on adding mum guilt to the top of this list... Have you ever tried to be the mum who’s up at 5am? The mum who “Started the day with a little 10k”? Well good on… Continue reading Mum Guilt…
This is me! Today is 20th May 2020 and we’re currently midway through the initial lockdown down to Covid-19. I’m not saying I’m always smiling like this, but much more often than not these days. I still have borderline personality disorder/ emotional unstable personality disorder and generalised anxiety disorder, and I’m still here, here’s why!… Continue reading Sarah now with BPD
This is me 🌈 You may have noticed I’ve taken a break from blogging, it hasn’t been intentional. I love to blog and I know how much it helps me and others when I share how I’ve been feeling. However, the main purpose of my blogging has always been for therapy, for my own escapism… Continue reading Mental health Awareness Week
Written 11th April 2020 ... Published 31st March 2021 Where do I start... right now... I’m exhausted, I’m drained and I’m tired of showing I’m ok when I’m not. Having just had a couple of hours crying to myself, I’ve realised the difference between the old me and now. The old me would have allowed… Continue reading Lockdown with BPD
(Written in March) Anxiety is often irrational, uncomfortable and difficult to manage and explain. With the current corona virus situation I can see life becoming more challenging and I’m more anxious than normal. When the news first broke on the corona virus, my flutterings of anxiety began. I could feel my stomach flip and my… Continue reading Anxiety & corona virus
I've fought so hard to not write this blog. I feel like I'm failing by thinking it, let alone reading it, but hopefully someone out there will take comfort in this and knowing we all still struggle. I finished my therapy back in November and my main medications in December. And I've been doing ok,… Continue reading Struggling to move on…
And it begins... the end is in sight... It was a couple of weeks who when my medication was put on general decrease. I wanted to share my withdrawal experience during the process. I remember for so long waiting to find the right medication, years infact. And then to find the right dose seemed to… Continue reading Withdrawing from seroquel (quetiapine)
On the 15th January this year I began the 7 first steps of DBT group. This was a weekly 3 hour group therapy to start treating my condition of EUPD. Tomorrow I attend my very last session of DBT, having moved to therapy twice weekly since April Where has the year gone. It was only… Continue reading DBT… that’s a wrap … what a year!
I've been thinking about whether or not I share this, but like everything I share it's always s list of pros and cons. I'm working with the pro's that Writing it down might help others understand my why I find it therapeutic to journal my thoughts I hope it may resonate with others It might… Continue reading Not going out… safe staying in
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