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My final DBT

Tomorrow will be the last of my 7 weeks of group DBT, Dialectal Behavioural Therapy. Unfortunately I've been ill for 3 of them but have managed to catch up with help from my new nurse. During that time I have also been told my psychiatrist has left. So since Christmas I have lost my CPN… Continue reading My final DBT

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Fake it til you make it, I did today and it felt great!

I was dreading today, day 15 but I'd promised a day at Disney Epcot as the girls had characters left to meet on their list. I wasn't feeling it & missed breakfast. But after a venting blog & 3 cups of tea, I put on my suntan lotion & Minnie Mouse ears (an example of… Continue reading Fake it til you make it, I did today and it felt great!

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Day 15 and the anxiety hits reverse – who is the real ME?

So this morning after a great nights sleep, I've woke up edgy & agitated. I really want to stay in bed today. Just sleep, laze about, do nothing. When I first woke up I couldn't think why. We had a blast yesterday at our last day at Universal's Volcano Bay & today we're due to… Continue reading Day 15 and the anxiety hits reverse – who is the real ME?

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My comfort blanket

I think some people thought I was silly bringing a blanket to Florida! But even though it's my daughters, it's become my comfort. When I just need to zone out & feel wrapped up, it's there. Now is one of those times & I'm so glad I brought it ❤️ It's Disney anyway right?!

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Discovering me at Discovery Cove

So in Orlando it has to be said that the one thing I was looking forward to most, was swimming with dolphins My husband & I came here the year before our wedding in November 2005 & I couldn't do it then. So it's been my dream, my wish for the last 13 years! And… Continue reading Discovering me at Discovery Cove

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The travel mug

I think this is my favourite blog I have ever written. It's silly, pathetic & pretty pointless, but has been a huge distraction to avoid the anxiety I have had, so here goes. At work since Christmas a few mugs/ cups have gone missing, including mine. My secret Santa gift... So after a few jokey… Continue reading The travel mug

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In need of a rest day

So Orlando is amazing but by 'eck do I need a rest day! Today is day 6 of parks & wow, we haven't visited half of them yet. The last 2 days I've felt a little anxious & overwhelmed and we've done half days, but it's not been enough respite to my normal life. I'm… Continue reading In need of a rest day

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The calm before the calm

So I thought I'd share a quick blog after my stressful panicked one this morning, I'm ok! Thank you for your text messages, tweets, hugs & general funny jibes! I needed it this morning. Particularly Emma, Charlotte, Sam & Tim who calmed me down for most of the day whilst also taking the Micky (see… Continue reading The calm before the calm

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Florida, Orlando get ready cos here we come! Holiday prep – screw you anxiety!

So we're almost here & for a holiday of a lifetime the pressure was bound to build up. But over the last week I've been trying to combine a number of things: Getting work in order to avoid worrying while I'm away Coping mechanisms & plans for my stay Self care / pamper So firstly,… Continue reading Florida, Orlando get ready cos here we come! Holiday prep – screw you anxiety!