These days I seem to have regressed a little back to ruminating and those around me I think find that hard to acknowledge. I worked so hard at finding coping strategies to stop myself and distract myself and at the moment those things are just not possible and it feels as those some of those… Continue reading Ruminating again… and again… and ….. again!
I've fought so hard to not write this blog. I feel like I'm failing by thinking it, let alone reading it, but hopefully someone out there will take comfort in this and knowing we all still struggle. I finished my therapy back in November and my main medications in December. And I've been doing ok,… Continue reading Struggling to move on…
And it begins... the end is in sight... It was a couple of weeks who when my medication was put on general decrease. I wanted to share my withdrawal experience during the process. I remember for so long waiting to find the right medication, years infact. And then to find the right dose seemed to… Continue reading Withdrawing from seroquel (quetiapine)
On the 15th January this year I began the 7 first steps of DBT group. This was a weekly 3 hour group therapy to start treating my condition of EUPD. Tomorrow I attend my very last session of DBT, having moved to therapy twice weekly since April Where has the year gone. It was only… Continue reading DBT… that’s a wrap … what a year!
I've been thinking about whether or not I share this, but like everything I share it's always s list of pros and cons. I'm working with the pro's that Writing it down might help others understand my why I find it therapeutic to journal my thoughts I hope it may resonate with others It might… Continue reading Not going out… safe staying in
So I haven't done a blog like this for a while, but I want to remain open about my condition and the challenges I face. I also want people to know there's hope and that it's possibly to have a good active life. According to Mind website, "Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a type of personality… Continue reading What is EUPD (Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder)?
Has it really been over 4 years since I held her hand and said goodnight... it has! I remember for so long feeling like nothing would ever be the same again, nothing would ever feel normal, I'd never think it would be ok to laugh or enjoy myself. But over the years my grief has… Continue reading Mums birthday… 4 years on
Saturday I had my hair cut and was feeling pretty much OK. I was so looking forward to my therapy today and coming out feeling revitalised and focussed. Well I'm not feeling as I had hoped! Over the last 6 weeks I've longed for the moment that I headed back into that room to start… Continue reading Back in therapy… and it’s self care tonight. I’m feeling delicate… I can admit when I’m struggling
I've said it so many times before but for some people my anxiety is hard to see. Put me on a stage in front of 1000 people and I'm ok. I know it sounds daft but I am. I remove my glasses so everyone isn't clear, but I can do it. I have a few… Continue reading When anxiety catches up when I’m in a small group … I’m better with a crowd!
We're just back from a truly wonderful holiday on the Greek Island of Corfu. We had 2 weeks of sunshine & relaxation. It was heavenly. I can't say I didn't have my own ups and downs, but overall it was definitely one to remember, for all the right reasons. The beautiful sunsets were breathtaking Having… Continue reading The Cardwell’s in Corfu