Last week I had a build up of my EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) symptoms. Nothing I could really put my finger on but I could recognise some of the symptoms Very tired, falling asleep even during the day Headaches not clearing Wanting to stay in my safe place Acting impulsively, making plans and cancelling… Continue reading An “episode”
Tomorrow will be the last of my 7 weeks of group DBT, Dialectal Behavioural Therapy. Unfortunately I've been ill for 3 of them but have managed to catch up with help from my new nurse. During that time I have also been told my psychiatrist has left. So since Christmas I have lost my CPN… Continue reading My final DBT
I have to remember on nights like today how far I’ve come. It’s hard because today I had a lot of things to do, a lot of places to be and lots of people to meet and I was overwhelmed from the moment I woke up. Instead of clearing my head, prioritising those things that… Continue reading Relapse of worry
I made it, I can't tell you yet that I enjoyed it or that I got anything out of it, but I did it. I came home actually feeling less positive and more helpless. I spent the whole group trying to answer questions in the right way, because it's a group. I don't want to… Continue reading Group therapy: week 1
Tomorrow I start a year long journey which I have already waited a year to begin and however well I'm handling my anxiety at the moment, I cant help it, I'm scared. Scared for so many reasons, I can hardly count them. WHY DBT?So what is DBT & why is it so important for those… Continue reading It’s D day tomorrow, D for DBT!
I sat gently tapping my foot on the floor as I tried to keep my eyes open after a disturbed night, the door knocked and I skipped a heart beat My night had been disturbed, not just through worry or a snoring husband, but the fact my HRT is still not quite working and the… Continue reading And breathe… my new nurse was lovely
I'm fortunate that my low days are fewer at the moment, but that doesn't mean I don't have them. When I do I really go low. How low can you go? Low. So low. When my husband went back to work yesterday, reality hit. You see I love being at home when he's here. I… Continue reading Low days… how low can you go?
Hey everyone! It feels so long since I wrote everything down and opened up my head. The truth is, I've been doing ok. Sometimes I feel like a fake when I'm handling life, I feel like I need to be struggling to be valid. But I'm not. It may be short-lived, but I certainly feel… Continue reading I took a break from blogging
Sorry if I've let you down today, recently, or ever, there's lots of you I'm sure, but please know it wasn't intentional. Sometimes it's easier to write to everyone rather than to tell one individual how I'm feeling. I didn't want to go out last week. One day I had 4 places I needed/ wanted… Continue reading I’m sorry if I let you down today, this week, ever!
Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward to the part where I'm better. I appreciate that I shouldn't wish my life away, I should attract wellness by thinking of it, fake it til I make it, positive thoughts... etc. In no way am I down, I'm actually having a good week, I just need… Continue reading Medication changes… again