This is me! Today is 20th May 2020 and we’re currently midway through the initial lockdown down to Covid-19. I’m not saying I’m always smiling like this, but much more often than not these days. I still have borderline personality disorder/ emotional unstable personality disorder and generalised anxiety disorder, and I’m still here, here’s why!… Continue reading Sarah now with BPD
(Written in March) Anxiety is often irrational, uncomfortable and difficult to manage and explain. With the current corona virus situation I can see life becoming more challenging and I’m more anxious than normal. When the news first broke on the corona virus, my flutterings of anxiety began. I could feel my stomach flip and my… Continue reading Anxiety & corona virus
I've fought so hard to not write this blog. I feel like I'm failing by thinking it, let alone reading it, but hopefully someone out there will take comfort in this and knowing we all still struggle. I finished my therapy back in November and my main medications in December. And I've been doing ok,… Continue reading Struggling to move on…
On the 15th January this year I began the 7 first steps of DBT group. This was a weekly 3 hour group therapy to start treating my condition of EUPD. Tomorrow I attend my very last session of DBT, having moved to therapy twice weekly since April Where has the year gone. It was only… Continue reading DBT… that’s a wrap … what a year!
I've been thinking about whether or not I share this, but like everything I share it's always s list of pros and cons. I'm working with the pro's that Writing it down might help others understand my why I find it therapeutic to journal my thoughts I hope it may resonate with others It might… Continue reading Not going out… safe staying in
So I haven't done a blog like this for a while, but I want to remain open about my condition and the challenges I face. I also want people to know there's hope and that it's possibly to have a good active life. According to Mind website, "Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a type of personality… Continue reading What is EUPD (Emotional Unstable Personality Disorder)?
Has it really been over 4 years since I held her hand and said goodnight... it has! I remember for so long feeling like nothing would ever be the same again, nothing would ever feel normal, I'd never think it would be ok to laugh or enjoy myself. But over the years my grief has… Continue reading Mums birthday… 4 years on
As I consider another aspect of my DBT, Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, the light bulbs are pinging everywhere. For a long time now, I've walked around with a bit of a chip on my shoulder. I've felt hard-done by and that the kids are hard done by due to not having as many people close to… Continue reading Radical acceptance in DBT
So it's Friday and I made it. Yey! My usual anxiety before Mother's Day didn't hit but I've struggled this week. We also have a weekend of family celebrations and this month is the anniversary of her passing, so it's all feeling a little raw. It's FRIYAY!I'd been doing so well and especially with a… Continue reading Bad week but I’m still here
I can't say that the last few years have been fun on this particular day. One way or another I've managed to spoil what should be a lovely family day. It's often been my own ridiculously high expectations, of a day that will somehow not be filled with me thinking of my mum, which is… Continue reading And here we are again… Mother’s Day 2019