My personal blog on my life as a married mum of 2 girls, battling Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes it will make you laugh, sometimes it will make you cry, but I will always be honest try to share information learning
I'm fortunate that my low days are fewer at the moment, but that doesn't mean I don't have them. When I do I really go low. How low can you go? Low. So low. When my husband went back to work yesterday, reality hit. You see I love being at home when he's here. I… Continue reading Low days… how low can you go?
Hey everyone! It feels so long since I wrote everything down and opened up my head. The truth is, I've been doing ok. Sometimes I feel like a fake when I'm handling life, I feel like I need to be struggling to be valid. But I'm not. It may be short-lived, but I certainly feel… Continue reading I took a break from blogging
In my support group last week, we talked about the attachment issues. As someone with borderline personality disorder I would acknowledge this has always been an issue, but it's only when you focus on it you can see the pattern. I do however have a massive issue with rejection, an irrational fear of losing people,… Continue reading I can’t believe I’m losing someone else
Sorry if I've let you down today, recently, or ever, there's lots of you I'm sure, but please know it wasn't intentional. Sometimes it's easier to write to everyone rather than to tell one individual how I'm feeling. I didn't want to go out last week. One day I had 4 places I needed/ wanted… Continue reading I’m sorry if I let you down today, this week, ever!
Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward to the part where I'm better. I appreciate that I shouldn't wish my life away, I should attract wellness by thinking of it, fake it til I make it, positive thoughts... etc. In no way am I down, I'm actually having a good week, I just need… Continue reading Medication changes… again
Some days it's easier to see strangers than anyone you know. Some days it's easier to hide away and lay low Some days it's easier to sleep right through the day Some days it's easier to fake it, until everything is ok Some days it's easier not to speak a word Some days it's easier… Continue reading Some days
Last night I began to feel tired. I could feel the anxiety building and switched my phone off for a few hours. I went to bed with my cloudy head wondering how I could clear it. I woke up this morning feeling like I hadn't slept at all. I had. I'd slept all night but… Continue reading Cloudy head syndrome
