This morning I've woken up, feeling fairly low. It's been there for a week or so now, gradually growing, turning from a general lethargy into a downright depressive mood. Who knows what factors & triggers have been involved. I came name two though, guilt & failure. Once again quitting smoking hasn't been as easy as… Continue reading Don’t stop trying to stop!
I want to start by saying how much I love you & always will. You are the most important priority in my life & will never put anything before your health & care. You are the most special thing I have ever been given. I love being your friend, when you confide in me, but… Continue reading Dear Daughters,
I won't lie to you, Florida was amazing. Both Orlando & Sarasota were incredible for different reasons & as a family we know we'd all love to go back. The anxiety & build up before I went was like nothing I've ever experienced. I suffer with anxiety a lot, but I was convinced I was… Continue reading There doesn’t have to be a down if you can control the up – Stability
For someone who is "unstable" Stability can often scare Its feel like something might creep up And I won't have time to prepare So even when I'm feeling good I'm worried about falling down So this time I'm doing things differently Without the forward thinking frown I'm enjoying each day for what it is Counting… Continue reading Stability
This last couple of weeks I've been pretty stable, even since returning from holiday, so that's amazing. Because I've been so stable, people have felt able to approach me on how they feel about different things. I love this. I have friends & family that can now read my blog & then approach me about… Continue reading Blogging exposes our deepest thoughts, but for me it’s worth it
Starting on Sunday night my excitement started with a nomination... for a Positive Role Model in the National Diversity Awards. You can still vote for me here On Monday I was phoned to say I'd be intereview Tuesday for Sheffield live, I was so excited & nervous. Tuesday I was interviewed & it went out… Continue reading Done my bit this week with raising awareness for the cause
Yesterday I had the pleasure of meeting Azz from SheffieldLive I was so nervous I took a friend & colleague, Radhika, along in the rain to the workstation. It was amazing just to have the support of a friend and not be alone. I was clearly beginning to feel anxious. Once inside I met Azz… Continue reading My first interview on Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder Awareness for SheffieldLive