My personal blog on my life as a married mum of 2 girls, battling Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes it will make you laugh, sometimes it will make you cry, but I will always be honest try to share information learning
Wow! After just 1 session I can't believe how much I've took away and started to implement. I feel very positive about this treatment and am thoroughly looking forward to week 3 of group therapy tomorrow. Every other week as part of my DBT, Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, I have a 1 on 1 with my… Continue reading Day one therapy 1 to 1 – Wise Mind & validation
Last week I had a build up of my EUPD (Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder) symptoms. Nothing I could really put my finger on but I could recognise some of the symptoms Very tired, falling asleep even during the day Headaches not clearing Wanting to stay in my safe place Acting impulsively, making plans and cancelling… Continue reading An “episode”
I made it, I can't tell you yet that I enjoyed it or that I got anything out of it, but I did it. I came home actually feeling less positive and more helpless. I spent the whole group trying to answer questions in the right way, because it's a group. I don't want to… Continue reading Group therapy: week 1
Tomorrow I start a year long journey which I have already waited a year to begin and however well I'm handling my anxiety at the moment, I cant help it, I'm scared. Scared for so many reasons, I can hardly count them. WHY DBT?So what is DBT & why is it so important for those… Continue reading It’s D day tomorrow, D for DBT!
I'm fortunate that my low days are fewer at the moment, but that doesn't mean I don't have them. When I do I really go low. How low can you go? Low. So low. When my husband went back to work yesterday, reality hit. You see I love being at home when he's here. I… Continue reading Low days… how low can you go?
In my support group last week, we talked about the attachment issues. As someone with borderline personality disorder I would acknowledge this has always been an issue, but it's only when you focus on it you can see the pattern. I do however have a massive issue with rejection, an irrational fear of losing people,… Continue reading I can’t believe I’m losing someone else
Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward to the part where I'm better. I appreciate that I shouldn't wish my life away, I should attract wellness by thinking of it, fake it til I make it, positive thoughts... etc. In no way am I down, I'm actually having a good week, I just need… Continue reading Medication changes… again
This weekend I did a lot of looking back, always focusing on the failures, the things I did wrong, the mistakes I made & I had to stop myself, because I actually got some things right. I need to learn to focus more on these & appreciate them, rather than focus on the negative. So… Continue reading October Mini goals
Today I count my blessings. I know it's been very negative from me lately, & I apologise for that, I'm still not out the other side but getting there. I'm feeling fortunate for so many things My daughters My husband My sisters These really do hold me together when the glue starts to crack! My… Continue reading Fortunate me!
The scariest thing about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), is how quickly it can change, in days, hours or even minutes. I can and do spot trends. After a build up of extreme highs, comes the lows. Often the higher the high, the lower the low and I'm told regularly that until I receive the tools… Continue reading From my toes to my nose – the highs and lows of BPD
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