In my support group last week, we talked about the attachment issues. As someone with borderline personality disorder I would acknowledge this has always been an issue, but it's only when you focus on it you can see the pattern. I do however have a massive issue with rejection, an irrational fear of losing people,… Continue reading I can’t believe I’m losing someone else
Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward to the part where I'm better. I appreciate that I shouldn't wish my life away, I should attract wellness by thinking of it, fake it til I make it, positive thoughts... etc. In no way am I down, I'm actually having a good week, I just need… Continue reading Medication changes… again
This weekend I did a lot of looking back, always focusing on the failures, the things I did wrong, the mistakes I made & I had to stop myself, because I actually got some things right. I need to learn to focus more on these & appreciate them, rather than focus on the negative. So… Continue reading October Mini goals
Today I count my blessings. I know it's been very negative from me lately, & I apologise for that, I'm still not out the other side but getting there. I'm feeling fortunate for so many things My daughters My husband My sisters These really do hold me together when the glue starts to crack! My… Continue reading Fortunate me!
The scariest thing about Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), is how quickly it can change, in days, hours or even minutes. I can and do spot trends. After a build up of extreme highs, comes the lows. Often the higher the high, the lower the low and I'm told regularly that until I receive the tools… Continue reading From my toes to my nose – the highs and lows of BPD
I can't get bereavement counselling because my mental health illness is too severe I can't have CBT because my mental health illness is too severe I can't go on sertraline, my mental health illness is too severe I need to have time off work because my mental health illness is too severe I need to… Continue reading Too severe or not severe enough – my mental health illness
Recently I wasn't shortlisted for an award, that I didn't even expect to be nominated for. It left me wondering if other people with Borderline Personality Disorder and anxiety avoided opportunities due to their fear of rejection, particularly in the employment sector. On Facebook & Twitter I appealed for volunteers to answer a survey. I'm… Continue reading The heartbreak of trying & failing – why mental health prevents us from having the job we want