In my support group last week, we talked about the attachment issues. As someone with borderline personality disorder I would acknowledge this has always been an issue, but it's only when you focus on it you can see the pattern. I do however have a massive issue with rejection, an irrational fear of losing people,… Continue reading I can’t believe I’m losing someone else
Sorry if I've let you down today, recently, or ever, there's lots of you I'm sure, but please know it wasn't intentional. Sometimes it's easier to write to everyone rather than to tell one individual how I'm feeling. I didn't want to go out last week. One day I had 4 places I needed/ wanted… Continue reading I’m sorry if I let you down today, this week, ever!
Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward to the part where I'm better. I appreciate that I shouldn't wish my life away, I should attract wellness by thinking of it, fake it til I make it, positive thoughts... etc. In no way am I down, I'm actually having a good week, I just need… Continue reading Medication changes… again
Some days it's easier to see strangers than anyone you know. Some days it's easier to hide away and lay low Some days it's easier to sleep right through the day Some days it's easier to fake it, until everything is ok Some days it's easier not to speak a word Some days it's easier… Continue reading Some days
Last night I began to feel tired. I could feel the anxiety building and switched my phone off for a few hours. I went to bed with my cloudy head wondering how I could clear it. I woke up this morning feeling like I hadn't slept at all. I had. I'd slept all night but… Continue reading Cloudy head syndrome
This morning I woke up to the news that I could actually achieve my "job" incentive which is a trip to Barbados. Things like this just don't happen to me. It was only a couple of months ago I was at rock bottom for what felt like the millionth time. I tried to work and… Continue reading Barbados… really?
Have you ever considered that the person your criticising is just starting out? We've all had those messages of canvassing, I've sent and relieved them. The message where when we see it, we assume that the person on the other end is cruelly working their way to irritate as many people as possible. We often… Continue reading Can you help to build someone, instead of kicking them down?