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Low days… how low can you go?

I'm fortunate that my low days are fewer at the moment, but that doesn't mean I don't have them. When I do I really go low. How low can you go? Low. So low. When my husband went back to work yesterday, reality hit. You see I love being at home when he's here. I… Continue reading Low days… how low can you go?

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I took a break from blogging

Hey everyone! It feels so long since I wrote everything down and opened up my head. The truth is, I've been doing ok. Sometimes I feel like a fake when I'm handling life, I feel like I need to be struggling to be valid. But I'm not. It may be short-lived, but I certainly feel… Continue reading I took a break from blogging

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I can’t believe I’m losing someone else

In my support group last week, we talked about the attachment issues. As someone with borderline personality disorder I would acknowledge this has always been an issue, but it's only when you focus on it you can see the pattern. I do however have a massive issue with rejection, an irrational fear of losing people,… Continue reading I can’t believe I’m losing someone else

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I’m sorry if I let you down today, this week, ever!

Sorry if I've let you down today, recently, or ever, there's lots of you I'm sure, but please know it wasn't intentional. Sometimes it's easier to write to everyone rather than to tell one individual how I'm feeling. I didn't want to go out last week. One day I had 4 places I needed/ wanted… Continue reading I’m sorry if I let you down today, this week, ever!

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Medication changes… again

Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward to the part where I'm better. I appreciate that I shouldn't wish my life away, I should attract wellness by thinking of it, fake it til I make it, positive thoughts... etc. In no way am I down, I'm actually having a good week, I just need… Continue reading Medication changes… again

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Cloudy head syndrome

Last night I began to feel tired. I could feel the anxiety building and switched my phone off for a few hours. I went to bed with my cloudy head wondering how I could clear it. I woke up this morning feeling like I hadn't slept at all. I had. I'd slept all night but… Continue reading Cloudy head syndrome

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Barbados… really?

This morning I woke up to the news that I could actually achieve my "job" incentive which is a trip to Barbados. Things like this just don't happen to me. It was only a couple of months ago I was at rock bottom for what felt like the millionth time. I tried to work and… Continue reading Barbados… really?