These are my blogs about my journey following my diagnosis with Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder/ Borderline Personality Disorder. I was diagnosed in January 2018.
I’m a 35 year old married mum of 2 girls. I am an EA to the CEO of an amazing charity helping with social & digital inclusion. I love my job. I love to travel when I’m well.
My mum sadly passed away in 2015 after a short six week battle with ovarian cancer. She was my best friend. My other best friend sadly lost her battle with depression in September 2016.
This is my journey to hopefully getting well & as the waiting list for talking treatment DBT is 18 months – 2 years in the UK at present, blogging is my own little bit of therapy.
If it helps you, then great, but this is really for my benefit, so please don’t judge. Sufferers of BDP can be a little over sensitive.
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My name is David and I am 39yrs old and as you were, was diagnosed with emotionally unstable personality disorder, having spent almost 30yrs mentally unwell and causing serious harm to myself and distress to those that care about me. Although I have always struggled to believe that anyone does truly care about me. I have never managed to maintain a relationship and sabotaged them all, believing they will leave me regardless. I have found the diagnosis difficult to accept and has left me feeling distressed a lot of the time due to its negative perseption and have to constantly tell myself that this does not define who I am.
I am due for an assessment next week with mental health services, where I also hope to be put forward for DBT as I don’t believe this is the best version of myself that I can be. I’m glad your post made it into my news feed, as I often feel I am alone in this world and that nobody understands. Your blog screamed out and felt as though someone was writing about me and what I had and was experiencing. Thank you so much, it is incredibly brave of you to write about this and must be quite cathartic to do so. Just writing this makes me feel slightly better, although probably temporary before I catastophise about the next thing to come along and emotionally destroy me. I live in hope that this will improve.
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I wish you every success David. I too hope to begin DBT soon too
I came across you on Twitter and love what you are doing!
I have been diagnosed with BPD and been living with it for years.
I have been on the waiting list for DBT for over 3 years and i have FINALLY started pre-treatment. I hope to start the full therapy in October. I totally understand the struggle, going it alone and waiting for a long time is hard bloody work. I’ve had my ups and downs and im still suffering on a day to day basis, but there is hope at the end of the tunnel. Treatment will come and like you, I use blogging as a self-help tool. Writing is my sanity.
Keep building on yourself and please don’t lose hope,
all my love