I can’t get bereavement counselling because my mental health illness is too severe
I can’t have CBT because my mental health illness is too severe
I can’t go on sertraline, my mental health illness is too severe
I need to have time off work because my mental health illness is too severe
I need to return to diazepam medication because my mental health illness is too severe
I can’t be seen by the crisis team, my mental health illness is not severe enough
I can’t be offered a different medication, like a mood stabiliser, because my mental health illness is not severe enough
I can’t be offered an emergency psychiatric / psychiatrist appointment, my mental health illness is not severe enough
I can’t be hospitalised, my mental health illness is not severe enough
I can’t be seen privately as I’ll be discharged from the NHS, so I must wait til I can have DBT (added to list January 2018, expected start January 2020)
So instead … I wait…
Feelings
- Lost faith and trust
- Rejected
- Deflated
- Desperate
- Guilty
- Lost
- Confused
- Unwell
- Cloudy
- Tired
- Frustrated
- Helpless
- Fearful
- Empty
sarahsthinkingagain 
This was so painful to read as I related so much to your agony. Why should your mental illness be measured against other people’s on a scale? It should be about meeting your needs. My GP told me last week ( when I was feeling suicidal) that he sees at least 5 people each week who are worse than me, you wouldn’t tell a patient with breast cancer that she’s not that bad because you have patients with incurable brain cancer. I’m finding mood stabilisers really helpful so maybe continue pushing to get a prescription for that. Just because you’re not jumping off buildings or thinking you’re Jesus doesn’t mean that your hell is any less.
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Sending hugs…..
Just wondering, why can’t you be seen privately if you’re waiting for the NHS?
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I don’t know. I mean personally I can’t afford it but my CPN said if I went privately they’d have to discharge me from their waiting list 😔
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Ooh. Okay, good to know I guess. But 2 years is a crazy long time….
Are you getting other support/therapy meanwhile?
(I’m asking for myself)
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