mental health

Who has my back?

I’m laid here now, tossing & turning, unable to sleep, worrying about a million & one decisions. The problem with the disorder Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder or Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is, you don’t have a strong sense of who you are & what the “right” thing to do is. I relied so much on my mum as “having my best interests at heart” & having no hidden agenda.

  • Parenting
  • Work
  • Medication & therapy choices
  • Physical health help
  • Holidays
  • Money
  • Lifestyle
  • Just life!

I just want one person who is thinking of me, loves me unconditionally & without judgement. Who wakes up & thinks I wonder if Sarah is ok. It’s selfish I know, I’m hard work I know, but I just need 1 person who has my back & I can turn to whatever I need.

Now I face the same issues & have so many people giving me different opinions. I’m exhausted & I can’t sleep. What I’d give to switch off my brain right now, sleep & then get 10 minutes with my mum for a cuddle, a bit of unconditional love & some advice! Especially the cuddles. Kirsty & my mum gave the best cuddles. I can almost feel the warmth remembering them

2 thoughts on “Who has my back?”

  1. Aww, this was really hard to read because I can’t imagine how difficult it is for you. I’m sure there are lots of people who love and support you, but I understand they can’t compare to your mum. Sending you lots of love, Sarah.

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